Listening to: "Waiting for the End" Linkin Park
Reading: The Sharing Knife: Horizon
Playing: Ocarina of Time
Eating: breakfast shiz
Well it feels like I can breathe again.
My life got reset again, I said goodbye to someone who I thought was going to be my best bud/love interest, but he ended up playing me in the end and stabbed me in the back. Great guy huh?
Anyway, John and I are talking again, it was really foolish of me to have broken up with him, he's really worth it and I didn't realize it until he was really gone. He is being cautious and I honestly don't blame him, he has every right to be like that.
Another thing I'm beginning to realize is how many things that I took for granted and what I'm thankful for. My life really needs to stop revolving other people and what's worrying me about them.
When I was 'pursuing' the guy that stabbed me in the back, he was all I could think about and I was in constant jealousy about other girls, it was sickening...
I'm really thankful that I have the ability to live on my own, I have a job, I have good neighbors, a family I can talk to, my art, and that I have John's love. I really need to stop thinking negatively and refresh my mind. I think now that whenever I have negative thoughts, I should bake something...and make it all awesomely pretty, hah.
Anyway, I'm finally getting my butt into painting again. I'm taking a painting class next semester and I really want to do well in it.
I need to work on Lolly! I haven't worked on it ever since I moved out and it's driving me nuts xD
Hope you guys had a good new year! Any resolutions?