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Listening to: "Waiting for the End" Linkin Park
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Reading: The Sharing Knife: Horizon
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Playing: Ocarina of Time
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Eating: breakfast shiz
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Drinking: CAWFEEE
Well it feels like I can breathe again.
My life got reset again, I said goodbye to someone who I thought was going to be my best bud/love interest, but he ended up playing me in the end and stabbed me in the back. Great guy huh?
Anyway, John and I are talking again, it was really foolish of me to have broken up with him, he's really worth it and I didn't realize it until he was really gone. He is being cautious and I honestly don't blame him, he has every right to be like that.
Another thing I'm beginning to realize is how many things that I took for granted and what I'm thankful for. My life really needs to stop revolving other people and what's worrying me about them.
When I was 'pursuing' the guy that stabbed me in the back, he was all I could think about and I was in constant jealousy about other girls, it was sickening...
I'm really thankful that I have the ability to live on my own, I have a job, I have good neighbors, a family I can talk to, my art, and that I have John's love. I really need to stop thinking negatively and refresh my mind. I think now that whenever I have negative thoughts, I should bake something...and make it all awesomely pretty, hah.
Anyway, I'm finally getting my butt into painting again. I'm taking a painting class next semester and I really want to do well in it.
I need to work on Lolly! I haven't worked on it ever since I moved out and it's driving me nuts xD
Hope you guys had a good new year! Any resolutions?
Sounds like things are looking up for you though.
this things that you mention goin on... are all just symbols of growth
Me, myself, and I.
And the whole jerk thing I can say I have been in that type of situation before (last year actually @_@. What the hell was I thinking?! *shivers*)
Anyway, good luck with your painting and I look forward to seeing some Lolly work
And I can see you're listening to Linkin Park xD Nice.
Like I said, there were a lot of things that I was forgetting about John when I broke up with him. He really is worth it...
Hopefully it all works out in the end, right?
I hope he welcomes you back into his life. Things will get better. *hugs*
Things are getting better for us, he and I do need to heal a wee bit before we majorly step into anything